man. i promised myself that i would diligently update my blog. and it seems i'm pretty darn bad at it. sucker me. my procrastinating habits haven't faded yet. whenever i find myself procrastinating, i wish i had the tenacity to slap some sense into my head. but i always feel as if my conscience is wearing those big headphones (you know, those noise cancellation ones),and just deliberately blocking out the screechings and naggings from the better sense in me. sheesh. *slaps myself*

ANYWAY. got a new guitar book! finally. and in the book, i managed to recover one of the songs i lost before - Reason (theme from Korean Drama Autumn In My Heart). the songs in it aren't brilliant. the only two songs i like are the Wish To Wish (theme from Jap Drama God Please Give Me Some Time) and the Reason song. the songs in these guitar books (Popular Melodies for Solo Guitar) are always very emo sounding. but they're nice to play. i have two other books from this series; in these there are other songs like Ju Hua Tai, Tian Shi, 13 Jours En France etc. but there're some really irritating songs by this guy called Kevin Kern. man his songs are annoying. so many repetitions. and the tune is always very shallow. not that the others aren't. but his are especially shallow. examples of some his songs are Sundial Dreams, Through the Arbor, Whispering..yeah. so if you ever come across his songs, even in the piano section. DON'T BUY IT. that's my advice. yeap. cheerios!

Sitting by the side, staring into space, trying to make sense of what i intended to say, i desperately tried to suppress the incessant chattering my teeth were making. the cold was bad enough. it made me feel like i was a chicken, being chilled in the fridge, waiting for the heat of embarrassment to thaw me afterwards. i hadn't even prepared my script, considering the fact that i was only acquainted with my slides for the first time just about 10 minutes ago. i had to rely on pure wit to get myself through the presentation. i looked to the back of the room where the external vendor was seated. she was seated, calm and collected, patiently jotting down notes as the people spoke. my fear contorted her into an intimidating monster. i could see her eyes darting behind her silver rimmed spectacles, from her paper, to the speaker, to the audience. restless eyes make me nervous.

when i went up, instead of the script i was trying hard to cram into my braindead brain, all that was reverberating in my head was the words - "this is so gonna screw". well. it eventually did. not as badly as i expected. besides the fact that i said the 2008 national day rally was spoken by Lee Kuan Yew. i was pausing most of the way. and i exuberated the manner of a retard trying to give a speech. ... okay i'm exaggerating. but i was half way there. she took quite a few moments before she gave me her feedback on my performance. i had the nagging feeling that she was trying to be as cautious as possible with her words. she said i had a slow pace (reiterating my retardness), lacked confidence, and a whole lot of other blahs. i felt kinda horrible after that. oh well, that's what you get when you're not prepared. but she undoubtly sucks as an examiner anyway. her comments are not very good. that's all i have to say for now. cheerios!

OKAY. I'M BACK. *dusting away the cobwebs*

WOOOT. i'm back after an uber long break. [after much procrastination. deliberate feigning of the non-existence of this blog. nudges from friends to update. and the irresistable temptation to succumb to the growing trend of blogs among my peers. (talk abt peer pressure)]

ANYWAY. how's it been for me since the last time i posted? hmmm. i guess it's been pretty eventful. in a good way. and bad way(of course). managed to get into JC. accomplished things i hadn't managed before. made new, excitable friends(and also oh so very exciting ones too). heightened my slacker status. which have jeopardised my grades(no, you can't take a peep)aand. i'm most probably gonna retain. other than that. to elaborate on the accomplishments side. i managed to attain a leader post in my choir cca. which was definitely by God's grace and blessing. aand. i'll share some other events that have happened in installments, in the next few posts. the rest, i'll keep in my handy-dandy diary. so. cheerios peeps;)