OKAY. JUST TO LET YOU KNOW.

I TRANSFERRED BLOG. quite some time ago.

SO, SORRY IT'S BEEN SO DEAD.

HERE'S THE URL: http://paperdreaming.wordpress.com

GO GO GO NOW!:)

IT'S CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!:D

today's yet another special day!(apart from my birthday)
cos it's CHRISTMAS!
MERRY CHIRSTMAS EVERYBODAY!
God bless everyone in all their endeavours for the coming year ahead, and may ppl also be blessed in their health and financial circumstances. do not fret! today's the day Jesus came into the world to give us LIFE. life in abundance. even when the world economy's down. GOD'S ECONOMY IS ALWAYS FILLED WITH BOUNTIFUL BLESSINGS. so don't worry. ask Him to take control of the year ahead. even in your studies and what not. cos He is God Almighty. AMEN to that:)

God bless you all! i shall recount today's events tmrw:) cheerios:)

the intro of this jeremy camp vid is quite long. so be patient haha. the song is called Beautiful One.

the day is settling into evening now. dark clouds starting to bruise the yellow tinted sky. golden streaks lining the cracks in the clouds. leaves are starting to grow on the skeletal trees outside my window. bunches, here and there. blooming into gentle orangey red and green. i'll post pictures up soon. it's nice to see the trees gradually growing back their former glory. before they were brazenly shaven under the noonday sun. i was there to witness it. you could mistaken the screaming of the giant razor to be that of the trees. it was a real headache inducing sound.

listening to the rustling of the leaves. watching the palm trees dance with the passing breeze. it comforts me. especially after having a horrible episode of non-stop puking yesterday. i still feel a bit of the nausea. damn this stomach bug. bending over the dustbin, shifting my position from the toilet, to the room, then to the living room; i swear if i didn't stop vomiting after the fifth time, i would have collapsed into a lifeless heap on the floor. wouldn't do my mom any good. she was changing the plastic bags in the dustbin for me after every puking frenzy. God bless her. i didn't realise how comforting her touch would be when she steadied me with her hand on my forehead. but that's all over now. i hope. the worst thing about every puking episode was that, i was so worried i'll choke and die on my own puke. it's like, you're barfing, and half way, you find you don't have enough oxygen left. you try to breathe. but the barf is clogging up your throat, spilling out of your nostrils. so, you have to resort to swallowing your own puke, so you can take a breather. sick, i know.

anyway. enough about barfing. i don't wanna barf out my dinner later. i've been waiting to eat since morning. so cheerios, while i prepare the dustbin by the dinner table. just in case:)

"love is too young to know what conscience is."
Sonnet 151.1

happy birthday to me:) AND HAPPY WORLD AIDS DAY!:D

WOOAH. it's been pretty darn long since i last posted.

well, today's a very special day! cos it's my 17th birthday! (and i highlight this in bold for all to see) so happy birthday to me:) thanks guys for all the happy bday wishes via sms, fb, friendster etc etc. really made my day. and thanks you hye na for the lovely prezzie:)

anyways, enough abt my bday wishes and prezzies. now let me recount today's events. (phew, one person just landed a major fart bomb in the toilet, feelin a little dizzy as it starts to diffuse around the whole room) today was the first day of the World Youth Choir Festival rehearsal. which made the day extra special. well, a 'short-lived special' cos i was practically half-dead by lunch break. the songs are just mean. we were given two scores - one German, and one Finnish. so you can imagine the tongue rolling and tongue twisting we had to endure. we certainly likened ourselves to a choir singing a hitler anthem. but i guess it wasn't too bad. i'm just not in a very rational mood right now. my choir peeps sang a happy bday song to me during the first tea break, and it was my first time having a bday song sung to me like that - infront of a whole crowd of strangers, in public. it was pretty cool for me, but embarrassing to my shy side (i was blushing). had a scrumptious dinner with my family for the rest of the evening. having flaming prawns at manhattan's fish market. and a psychedelic chocolate mousse cake with a waver biscuit foundation. i enjoyed it very much.

ANYWAY. enough abt my bday already. today is also WORLD AID'S DAY! (and being my selfish, egotistic self, i have only left this event to the last bits of this post. not doing it justice at all. oh well) i pray that the stigmatism and prejudices against those AIDs inflicted people will be cleared, and that they would still be given equal opportunities, and receive as much graciousness in society. God loves them as much as those non-AIDs people, and so should we. God bless them all!

oh the grace of God is sweet.

well. what can i say? yesterday was the promotional day. and i'm retaining. which is kinda great for me. cos i have a second chance to make things right with my studies. i can honestly say that i've been neglecting them in some way or another. i.e. not following up on lectures, passing up hmwk late, procrastinating etc. this is probably the first year that i've done all this in full fledged rebellion of my studies. of course it could have been worse. but hec it.

the journey home yesterday was unbelievably, torturously solemn. i felt like i had attended my own funeral. when i got back my results, and all my classmates spilling into the lt, crowding around me, i seriously felt like crying right there and then. but i held the tears. even though they were bruising my eyes with their punches. i couldn't believe that all my classmates came to ask about me. i was seriously overwhelmed by their concern. that, i can say, was the first time i had such a touching experience from my friends. even though i can't grasp the same intensity of feelings right now as i'm typing this, that really was a moment to remember. i thank God for classmates like these.

when i went home. all i felt like doing was constipating myself on the toilet. the toilet seemed to be the perfect place to be. quiet. the sunlight dabbing shades of gray on the white tiled floor. perfectly reflecting the way i was feeling at that moment. a dark mood feeling out of place in the sushine. but i decided to retreat to my bedroom instead. i have always liked to reflect on my life everynow and then, and seemed like a very appropriate and oppurtune time to do exactly that. but i just couldn't bring myself to write. so i just passed the time staring out of the window. fortuantely mine had a nice view.

i still had to show my results to my parents. listening to the clapping of my mother's slippers behind my bedroom door, i started to imagine all the possible scenarios that could happen after i show her my results. i just couldn't bear to see the disappointment crinkling on her face, resounding in her voice. i began to feel a bit dizzy. i needed a walk in the park. but deeming it as impossible, i quickly discarded the idea. and continued my previous meditation.

i am not going to put into detail what hapepened later on. nothing terrible happened. it was just another repeat of the many other repeat scenarios that happened after my previous exams. all i have left to say is that, i thank God for watching over me and being with me throughout this time. he shows His presence in subtle ways, but it's just the knowledge that He is in control that gives you peace. it's like. yesterday morning. i was on the verge of being really late in gettin back my results. and had to resort in gettin a taxi. when i was half way down the hill. a taxi just stopped right on the curb. waiting for me to get in. i was stunned for a moment. i didn't even flag it down. i wasn't even remotely in a position to flag one down. but by the grace of God, there it was, waiting for me. now that's a miracle. cos there weren't many taxis during that hour, along my stretch of road. just praise be to God.

i'll just end with these verses, to remind myself of the attitude i should adopt from now on.

"whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving."
Colossians :23-24

"Jesus said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
2 Corinthians 12:9

"God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline"
2 Timothy 1:7

"For i know the plans i have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11

YEEES. TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF PW. AND I'M SO HAPPY. I'LL BE TYPING IN CAPS FOR THE REST OF THIS POST. YAY!:D

HERE'RE SOME PICS WE TOOK.

AND SHE DIDN'T NOTICE. HEHE.
FATHIAH AND PHYU
FATHIAH. DAYDREAMIN. AND I WONDER ABT WHAT.
OUR GLORIOUSLY NEAT TABLE. AND AZIMAH GRINNING HER GLORIOUS GRIN.

AND SHE DIDN'T NOTICE EITHER! HEHE.
SHAM AND I.
SHAM AND I AGAIN.
AZIMAH AND PHYU.
ACTUALLY THERE WAS A REALLY CUTE PIC OF PHYU HERE. BUT DUE TO SOME. UM. DISAGREEMENT. I HAVE DECIDED TO TAKE DOWN THE PICTURE. BUT IF YOU'D LIKE TO SEE IT. JUST CALL ME. oops. i forgot to give you my no. 9******5 go figure:)